Daughter of Hell's blog: "Quitting Smoking - for the ninetyth time this week"

I have managed to last longer than I did last time without the fags, stopped on the 12th March and haven't smoked since. I am still on the patches, forgot them yesterday and kept on falling asleep at work, so hopefully if I can manage to wean myself off the fags properly will then need to wean myself off the patches. But anyway not doing so bad seeing as its the 17th of April today though.

well i have managed to get to three weeks without a cigarette, and I have noticed I don't have as much patience as I used to, my sarcasm is getting worse, I am eating more but at least I can breathe properly now. In another three weeks I will probably be the size of a three bedroom house.

i have no been able to get to day 18 without a cigarette, I went and got more patches off the doctor so have them to last me four weeks till i go on the weaker strength ones.

I thought i would have buckled after the first week so i am doing quite well, I haven't been coughing since i gave up and I can breathe properly for the first time without wheezing only downside is the waking up in the morning at a stupid hour, hoping that is just a phase that I will grow out of

well only by an hour, and still not smoking, the woman in work in the non smokers group said i was officially a non smoker, but I think its going to take a lot longer, i have patches to last me for another week and a bit, so will try and wean myself off them but keep a box spare in case the urge gets overwhelming

all i did yesterday was stuff my face with food, in work I have been busy as its gone a bit mental as its end of the month for payroll so allsorts of things have been going wrong, anyway doing okay so far, there have only been a couple of times I wanted one, but that passed, still got the patches which i dont think i could do without.

Apart from being the title of one of my favourite tracks by Hazel O'Connor this just happens to be the 8th day that I have not had a cigarette for. People in work are quite proud of me and today I found out quite a lot of smokers who I used to bump into in the bikeshed outside work have also quit, so now I dont feel so bad. anyway I am starting to feel quite proud of myself also, someone today was talking about playing squash, I did have one or two games when I was a heavy drinker and smoker and it almost killed me but I enjoyed it, so I might take it up if I can find a club in my area if it lets beginners join. anyway thats me non-smoking diary for today

Well its nearly 11am and this is my 7th day without a fag, I had a sudden urge to have one before but I fought it, but that was the first time since Friday night I had one of them, so I am just glad for the patches as I think I would have given in by now, at least if they can get me through the craving stage then I will be okay

Well i a managed to resist the urge of what I normally do on Friday, smoke lots, it was tough last night as I was so dying for a cigarette but I never give in. I did spend time fixing up the site and doing mindmaps etc which helped keep me mind off wanting one for a wee while. As I said before weekends are the worst. I removed the patch last night and I didnt have no nightmares or strange dreams. I dont know whether I like this getting fit lark, I am up now at 6.38am on a Saturday, this is virtually unheard of i think I will go back to bed in a minute

Well this is the start of day 5 of no fags, still feeling a bit strange, have weird severe dreams. Dreamt I was a surfer the other night, which is bizarre cos I cant even swim, but it was a bit mental as I was in a place with no waves. Dont know whether its the patches playing fuck with my mind. I was even in bed early last night which is not like me at all, so thats why I am awake at 6ish in the morning. its okay cos I have to work up my flexi time at work, I got told off because I was hours down, so doing me best to make that right. Anyway hardest time for me with this is the weekend as I never managed to get past them, so its going to be a bit of a struggle. So fingers crossed I make it, got the site to play with and some of the store stuff so that should keep me occupied enough not to want one I hope